Love

Adolescence is the time in life when girls stop believing in fairy tales and start believing in love; but I have realized that love is a fairy tale, and I should never have believed in either.

break in the storm

Years of living with a storm cloud over my head have now come to an end, the Sun is breaking through and I can feel it's warmth changing me. I am now a different person because the Sun has given me reason to live. There are so many things in life to be glad about, I will spend my days naming them all.

broken inside

If you go, then i'll forget you. When you're gone, i won't miss you. I'm sorry; that's just the way i've learned to deal with broken hearts.

So many years spent floating along as people enter and exit my life, I've stopped caring when someone leaves because I never cared about them in the first place. How to you accept that happily ever after doesn't exist in this world? Prince Charming is not going to come riding in on a white horse and I will never never live in castle of my dreams.

i believe

i believe in sleeping in
i believe in giving 100% when you only have 80
i believe in love, arguing, and jamming out by yourself in the car
i believe in kisses on the forehead
i believe in long kisses, smiling till your cheeks hurt, and laughing until you cry
i believe in having someone tell you that you're beautiful
i believe in having someone play with your hair
i believe in swinging on swings and running in the rain
i believe in miracles and random acts of kindness
i believe in saying hello to anyone and everyone
i believe in second chances
and i believe in a loving God

Waterfall of Life

For years, slowly slipping over the edge till I start to tumble downward; like the red tears falling over the white satin under which the blue river runs. I watch the mocking faces flying in front of my eyes as I slip under. Some will fall with me for awhile till hands reach out and snatch them away. What is going to happen when I hit the bottom? The tears stop falling because no one is left to cry. What once comforted is no longer good enough, so it all breaks open. Inside there is nothing left.

Rough Day

It's 1 o'clock am and I just finished my 8 page English assignment. I'm feeling really tired and at the same time I don't want to go to sleep. Evening worship was tough as I felt like an outsider looking in through a window, wishing I could get inside. How is it that one moment you can feel surrounded by love and then minutes later you feel lonely? Anyway I am off to bed, praying that tomorrow goes better than today.

Well this is new...

My friend pulled an all-nighter and created herself a blog last night, then came up with the great idea to create me one. So here I am sitting in the library, not sure what to do or what to say... so hi. I'm just a typical girl trying to figure out what to do with my life. I'm working towards my nursing degree as well as developing my relationship with God in hopes that he will use me in amazing ways. So that basically sums up my life for the time being.